Has it really been almost 10 months? Some days I feel like I’ve known you forever. Somedays I look at you and feel overwhelmed because it’s like I don’t know you at all. I suppose it will be like that your whole life, huh? They forgot to mention that in the Mommy Manual.
You’re getting so big, Petite. I know its all relative, but for starting out as such a tiny baby, you’re SO BIG!
All the sudden, overnight it seemed, you changed from my precious newborn to an almost toddler. When I hold you now (you still don’t hang on…) it’s so different from snuggling you as an infant. Sometimes you push away and it hurts my heart – oh does it hurt my heart. But I know its because you’re so eager to GO! and DO! and SEE!. Your long legs are just itching to start walking – overnight you decided to start crawling. After you realized the inefficiency of crawling you decided you’d just go to walking. Your brain is two steps ahead of your body, my love.
Your sweet baby face is almost gone. Thanks goodness for this precious transitional time. I’m cherishing every moment, Petite. I’m always afraid I’m going to miss your “last” of something or that I’ll forget to write down a first or milestone. Even though you don’t like to be held or cuddled on my schedule, you decide in the middle of playing that you want to be by my side or in my lap. I can’t tell you how much I cherish the moments when you choose to be with me. I want to bottle that feeling up and save it for the day you choose a friend over your momma.
I know there are bigger changes in store for the next few month, Petite. I know that they are inevitable and necessary. I know that I will cherish every teething, bumped head, hungry-screaming second of it. But I’m not ready. I’m not ready for you to be a toddler. I’m not done cherishing your baby-hood. I guess I better get my fill in, huh? I see some books and cuddling in our afternoon, darling Petite.